forgiveness is the release of all hope for a better past


If we were created in God's image
then when God was a child
he smushed fire ants with his fingertips
and avoided tough questions.
There are ways around being the go-to person
even for ourselves
even when the answer is clear
clear like the holy water Gentiles would drink
before they realized
forgiveness is the release of all hope for a better past.

I thought those were chime shells in your pocket
so I chucked a quarter at it
hoping to hear some part of you respond on a high note.
You acted like I was hurling crowbirds at mockingbars
and abandoned me for not making sense.
Evidently, I don't experience things as rationally as you do.

For example, I know mercy
when I have enough money for the jukebox.
You know mercy whenever someone shoves a stick of morphine
straight up into your heart.
It felt amazing
the days you were happy to see me

so I smashed a beehive against the ocean
to try and make our splash last longer.
Remember all the honey
had me lookin' like a jellyfish ape
but you walked off the water in a porcupine of light
strands of gold
drizzled out to the tips of your wasps.
This is an apology letter to the both of us
for how long it took me to let things go.

- from "Hurling Crowbirds at Mockingbars (Hope is Not a Course of Action)" by Buddy Wakefield (x)


Linda said...

I have another song recommendation. "Circles" by Natalie Walker. It was featured in back in Season 4 of Grey's Anatomy, so maybe everyone else discovered it years ago, but I just heard it tonight and I'm blown away. Just wanted to make sure you've heard it too.

PS- LOVE the Norm pictures. He looks so happy!

Maryann said...

Hi Linda!

I did watch Grey's back in season, but I don't remember this song. It's haunting and lovely. Thank you for sharing!

And thank you for saying Norm looks happy. I of course love to hear people say how cute he is, but saying he looks happy means a lot to me as his owner. :)